Popular belief has it that the universe is comprised of atoms. In reality, the universe is actually made up of…

In my sock drawer, there is a hiding space behind a row of what my father calls grave socks as in one foot in the grave because they either do not have a match, are riddled with holes, threadbare at the toes and heels, or the ankle elastic has given up their hold on life. In that hiding space, there is a letter written carefully in a mixture of cursive and print. In that letter, are words, feelings, emotions, and admissions that a boy would never say directly to a girl’s face, not even on a double-dog dare.
On a bicycle, there is a shy paperboy who, even though I have not responded to his first letter yet, would write me another letter, I am sure of it, reminding me of our time in the park. In that park, there is a rum cherry tree under which I made a promise to the shy paperboy of seven minutes in heaven.
In my closet, on an afternoon when no one is home, I make good on my promise with the shy paperboy. In the dark, my mind is filled with a sort of scary, sort of awkward fireworks that I can see but cannot hear because my heart is pounding so fast and loud that I swear the shy paperboy can hear it.
In that kiss, there is something I do not have words for, something that drops my guard completely, makes me feel truly comfortable with the shy paperboy and I am desperate to let him see me in my entirety.
In that feeling, I am crying harder than I ever have before, harder than I even knew I could, crying past the point when I run out of tears. In the tearless sobs, my breath is hitching and I realize that this is most likely the happiest and most terrified I will ever feel in my life.
In the silence, after the kiss and the tears, the overwhelming and slightly painful joy is replaced by the sound of a key sliding into a lock, the tumbling of a bolt, and the jangling of a woman’s metal bracelets.
In the house, there is a mother who will tan not only my hide but the shy paperboy’s as well, if she ever finds out I have company without permission and especially if my room door is closed and that company is a boy who is in my room.
In the window, there is a scared paperboy climbing out and mumbling a prayer that he does not hurt himself or make a sound when he drops a story to the ground below.
In my mother’s eyes, there is suspicion when she opens the door and enters my room, catching me rushing to shut the window, cutting off the cool breeze even though I am dripping with sweat.
In my mind, there is a list of excuses that I cannot find in the clutter of thoughts so I just stare at my mother as innocently as I can manage, as she walks past me and opens the window, about to stick her head out to inspect the backyard.
In my mouth, there is a fib, “A wasp!” I say just a bit too forcefully and I build on it by telling her there was a wasp in the room so I closed the door to stop it from getting into the rest of the house and I managed to chase it out and shut the window behind it.
In the moments that tick by too slowly, my mother glances at the window again, then at my face before turning to leave but as she reaches the door, she stops and says, “You should probably find a better hiding place. Your father’s been talking about throwing out your grave socks and you wouldn’t want him finding that letter, would you? And the no company without permission rule stands no matter how sweet a boy’s words are or how much your heart aches for him, understood?”
In the end, I realize I am not as clever as I think I am, nor is my mother that foolish or unreasonable and I discover a newfound respect for her as I answer, “Yes, ma’am.”
This made me smile all the way through. Young love and first love letters are heart-touching and hopeful. It’s a shame when we grow out of these simple acts of beauty. Oh, and props to Mom for not spoiling the notion of love for her daughter! Excellent story, Rhyan!
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Cheers for read and compliment, Suranne!
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Aw, man… Here I was, contemplating my gloomy Sunday night, and you had to come along and ruin it with something beautiful! How I remember my childhood crushes, none of whom had any idea I was madly in love with them. This is a sweet story that had me grinning unapologetically at the end. So glad Mom didn’t crush the girl’s young heart. Hopefully there was a rose bush or two to cushion the shy paperboy’s fall. And hopefully the girl finds a better hiding place for that special letter. Great stuff, Rhyan. 🙂
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Story of my life, Mike, always busting up someone’s gloomy Sunday night with posts about young love. Mea culpa. I’ll try to restrain myself in the future. Cheers for the read and compliment. Always greatly appreciated.
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Oh, you took me for a ride there, I thought Mom was going to flip her lid. Excellent. Fantastic write.
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Yeah, parents can sometimes surprise you like that. Cheers for the compliment, Peri.
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I never know what to expect from you. Beautiful and touching. Great job, dude, keep up the good work!
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If I can keep you on your toes, that means I’m doing my job correctly, dude. Cheers for the compliments.
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The joy of young love, and the faith of a mother that she’s taught her child well enough not to make the wrong mistakes. Beautifully done.
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Much appreciation for the read and compliment, Drew.
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I eagerly await your posts
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Too kind.
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This actually reads like a young girl has written it. Kudos to you, Rhyan! Every word, feeling, and inhibition is so clear and crisp. Daughters think they are smarter but mothers are the ones who let them wrongly believe so. A great story with a lot of heart. 🙂
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Sometimes kids need a healthy reminder that their parents were young once themselves, and you can’t always outfox an old fox.
Kind words from a kind woman. Many thanks, Terveen.
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Wonderful story! Thanks for writing it.
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Thank you, tnkerr, for taking the time to read and comment on it.
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Wow. I loved this. Reminds me of when I was a young girl hiding love letters in drawers, all those warm new feelings and the joy of a kiss. 🙂 Great story Rhyan!
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Sad fact of the matter is there just aren’t enough love letters in the world once you reach a certain age. I’m glad it brought back fond memories, and even gladder that you took the time to comment. Thank you, Kirsten.
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You’re very welcome Rhyan. And you know, I have to agree with you on that. I haven’t received one in ages. 😦
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This story is so good and comforting, Rhyan! Thank you for sharing it! 💜🥰💕💖♥️🌹🙏🤗🤗🤗🤗
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Thank you for reading and for the compliment, Cuca!
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Sometimes you come across things at the right time. I woke up in the wee hours of the morning and this is usually an indication for me that my spirit needs to be nourished with goodness and that’s exactly what this story is! ❤️❤️🙏🏾
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Fernando, that has to be the highest praise that I’ve received to date. Thank you sincerely for the kind words!
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This is very very cute. I smiled through and through, thank you.
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Thank you, for taking the time to read and for the compliment. I’m glad you enjoyed it.
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I like how all of the nuances of angst, secrecy, and new love shine.
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I appreciate your taking the time to read and comment. Thank you.
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I really liked this – it reminded me of the poem ‘Spell of Creation’ by Kathleen Raine. Great stuff!
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I wasn’t familiar with Kathleen Raine or her work, so thank you for bringing her to my attention and thank you for the read and your comment!
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Great piece of writing, really enjoyed it
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Much appreciated!
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Your story has a lovely unfolding of emotions as one reads it.
Teens and the blossoming of romance. Nicely detailed and told.
Isadora 😎
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Very kind of you to say, Isadora. Thank you.
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Enjoyed reading this – it felt very real. So well crafted.
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Cheers for the compliment! It’s very much appreciated!
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